8 months ago i had this brain injury and it has destroyed valuable IQ, personal mentalities and ideas. Brain damage has caused me to think and interpret things differently, lose my past mindset and personality changes. I used to be over conscious and suspicious, introverted, paranoid, serious, think things more practically and logically, think a lot constantly and very untalkative. But now I am more %26quot;loosened up%26quot;, casual, joke around more, carefree, talkative about almost nothing of any siginificance and interpret and think things more emotionally than logically. My IQ was always at least above 95% of the population regardless of being unofficial school IQ tests to official ones. But now i dont even dare to think about my intellectual level. Before, i would be considered as a %26quot;geek%26quot; interested in psycology, history and politics but now im not really interested in anything complicated but superficial, simple-pleasure crap like guns or swords because less is required as intellectual fulfilment. I also used to be one of those considered %26quot;clever sillies%26quot; (http://www.citeulike.org/user/rt111/article/6753400I). I probably sound cocky and therefore annoying to any reader but you should realise by now i am in no mood to be boasting to irrelevant strangers but am just trying to express how big of a contrast and painful loss i got from just one brain injury. Seriously what should I do? I dont want to accept i will always be inferior to my past in everything i do if i hadnt got that injury and lived on. I also feel humiliated. I also feel humiliated because personality/IQ/mindset change means a change in my identity. It is like living as someone else yet representing the same myself because i am completely different in mentality and thus whole person from before my injury. It is also insulting to my genes that i have become totally different from it and destroyed its effects.
It is difficult to understand from a non Traumatic Brain Injury sufferer the physical affects/impacts of a severe enough brain injury. It changes your whole person because 'you are your brain' so damage in the brain will change almost every characteristic (although accept your physical appearance obviously). Anyway, maybe im confusing because brain injury means problems in common sense, understanding and expressing ideas (so i maybe unclear on how to make my writing interpretable/perceivable from everyone else) but please tell me what i should do.
But seriously what should I do? I can live with anything other than this. Medical help is useless at this severity of brain damage and time of recovery unless there's some way of creating a miracle from stem cells but i understand nothing about that. I am a Christian but unsure if God really will heal me. Anyway, even if i dont worry about it this brain injury is still causing me trouble at school because i find it difficult even to understand simple things. Do you think death is best because I am not afraid of pain and death but only still living because delusionally still feel a tiny hope that i can still recover from this. Anyway, please give me some ideas about what to do especially christians please
This thing has ruined my life! what should I do?
Well, by your rant up there, I can tell you still have a little of your old you in you. (confusing?) As you say, your IQ is lower and you're struggling in school. Your intelligence is lowered also. But what I'm trying to say is that you are still you. Even though your characteristics have changed dramatically, you're panicked, or what caused this panic? You're being paranoid. Does that sound familiar? You're over cautious about your brain and your new personality. You're suspicious. You might have a lowered IQ and you might have %26quot;loosened up%26quot; and not as serious anymore, but you're still you. You might have more of the %26quot;new%26quot; you because of this brain injury, but even though your brain changed you, it can't change everything about you. Yes, it's true; people say %26quot;you are your brain%26quot; but a lot of people say to listen to your heart.
Scientifically, your heart is just a muscle. You don't think off it. But it covers your soul (or something like that). Your mind may change a lot in you, but you still have that bit of your old you. Over time, with hard work and dedication to your studies (ew, I sound like a mom) you can prod at that section where you have lost your memory. Every time you hit something that you've hit before, it'll all slowly come back in time. Maybe you won't ever get your memory back, but you'll learn fast because before you were a smart person. Does this make any sense? *sigh*
Anyways, death is NOT the answer, and it's not the best. No matter what the hope is, you'll still live for it no matter what. Who cares if you took a complete characteristic turn? You'll just have both in you. And in serious matters, your old you will kick in. I mean.. seriously, are you going to be carefree when a truck is speeding towards your best friend or something? Yeah.. you know what I mean. You just have to live with it. Life happens and all you have to do is live with reality. God created us for a reason. We all go through hardships. If you're going to commit suicide because of you've %26quot;changed%26quot; a bit.. Ok no offense, but that's a really stupid reason to die. You live for people you love, not just only yourself. Live through this hardship.. (and you'll make it through btw but only if you chose to) and you'll be happy. Learn to live with the new you. Good luck :) I hope you find your way
This thing has ruined my life! what should I do?
I wonder if you know about Solfeggio Frequencies and Law Of Attraction?
I live by it...I made this page on Zedge.. http://www.zedge.net/profile/EnergyField鈥?/a>
The Solfeggio Frequencies are definately worth looking into! This is a quick copy and paste from my zedge page:
My Solfeggio frequencies available to download here are %26quot;PHANTOM%26quot; frequencies or what you might call a 'third' frequency. You absolutely MUST listen to them in stereo in order for your mind to percieve the PHANTOM frequency! (headphones have more effect)
A PHANTOM frequency can be explained like this....If I put a tone of 100Hz in the left speaker...and a tone of 628Hz in the right speaker...your mind will know that the difference in pitch between the two separate frequencies is 528Hz(Transformation/Miracles/Healing) so this is how the PHANTOM or 'third' frequency is achieved.
Everything is created by sound or frequency...I really do think Solfeggio frequencies might help you!
Love%26amp;Light!
you said you麓re a christian, if you麓re a true born again christian then the first thing you have to do is start praying for GOD麓s help, next you need to find medical help, try even in your church, surely there must be a doctor who麓s a member there, try asking him/her for help, explain your situation and GOD麓s willing you麓re problem will be solved.
Also if you are curious about what IQ do you have you can take a very accurate online test at http://easyiqtest.notlong.com, hope this helps :)
1- Deep meditation.
2- past life regression.
3- future life progression.
